I'm still here, believe it or not! Not a very productive summer art-wise except for a few sketches and a block print and perhaps some ideas. Just starting my first full week of classes at Mass Art, still not sure what I think yet. I've been debating my major, wondering if I should stick with SIM (Studio for Interrelated Media- basically can be whatever the hell you want it to be) or sculpture. Right now I'm just feeling a little lost I suppose since I think I prefer a more structured environment with more hands on instruction and set assignments. My issue is always that I have a million vague (but good) ideas that I can never quite bring to fruition because I've got too many going on at a time and have trouble narrowing things down and really putting the work into making it happen. Like I came up with this whole installation idea involving a tree, a stone labyrinth, some fire, etc. etc. and even have a reasonable idea on what materials I'd need and how to pull it off, but I haven't started anything yet because I don't know how to go about getting a location for it. I know I could go off and do it in my yard somewhere which may be a good idea as a sort of "trial run" to work out the design kinks before installing it in a more public space where people can actually experience it for themselves.

The other thing I keep getting caught up in lately whenever I have an idea is to ask "why?" and feel like I need to have some big intellectual explanation going for the idea to be worth pursuing. Apparently it's not enough to try something new just because I feel like it. I have some serious creative backup going on, lots of ideas and not a whole lot of work going on, it's making me pretty anxious actually. I'm thinking of starting with something small, like I've had a notion of making a mask or costume for a while so that may be a good place to start. Eventually it could be expanded from there: mask > costume > performance/ritual > video recording? It doesn't matter if I don't exactly know how to begin, trial and error will get me through well enough. Tommorow (Tuesdays) I have no classes so there's really no excuse for me not to get something started!